litote blood exercise

waiting on the baby’s lashes
to dip & stay dunked
like a pebble tasted, skipped & sunk
the taste of gardens, secret
& the funk of nontrivial algae.

baby, a vagina is
two held hands that bleed.
I’m crazy, I jump poems
kicklessly like frog’s legs.

begging poems like bubbles of kiss
look for lips
bliss
waver
pop.

softly, baby, bleed upon the earth.
it’s nothing more
than a pebble heading home,
striking water, landing near.

prison guard

Don't climb the fence, But why miss cate, 
Kid eating foxes, fangs, hungry mold, evil witches,
No don't lick the fence, Miss cate
Yes, What's evil, What do you think?
A lot of emergencies outside today, Yes,
That's evil, Maybe, I had a dream, Yes?
That my daddy got fired, A dream, Yeah,
and then he took a poop on the floor, Oh no,
A real poopy blowout, Let's line up now, back
to the symbol room, designed to stupefy
with comfort colors, what is awe but a paralysis?

my senior teacher pulls the shades,
shuts out a UFO cloud, frustrated kids abandon windows
and clump on the books, rifling for answers
fills me with joy and dread, denied the real,
they seek symbolic knowledge, like a prison guard
I bring them news of the outside,
woolly cat caterpillar, red ants, beech leaves, we identify
evil, the smell of gasoline and the sweetmalted air of cereal factories, we cooperate
on mysteries of addition, and doorknobs, bumping heads too large like hydrangeas,
Miss cate, I miss my mommy, I know you do baby, gentle,
Miss cate? Why is your name that?
Why is your name E? Because I miss my mommy,
That's a good reason, A prison guard is gentle
so the ideologies of social control can reproduce
within kids, without them noticing, Don't squeal,
Eat your mushy crackers, Culturally sustained brain damage,
that's evil, Eat your boiled trash!

but we're learning to read bit by bit,
that's progress, we're learning to share,
and one by one the parents come in exhausted commutes and I report the joys
of our day, ten hours in the symbol room, memorizing symbols,
and they leave in twos and threes, I do not report my sociologies:
if you do not exist within a coherent village,
you do not deserve to raise a child, I cannot report that,
the communeless kids are already born, confined to capitalist families and comfy prison,
a prison guard is also in prison, even when I go home,
so I go home, the daytime people
exchange places with the nighttime people
to avoid overcrowding, last jangle of pinktambourine sky
and first prick of cold stars, so I find you in bed
already, and we want and fuck and fall asleep so fast
my legs still cloudywet the next morning
and this is all there is, legs and life are sticky, hope that's not a UTI.

Max, found

affection for a bald spot 
bobbing 
on a bike 
below me
making neighborhood inquiries
Have I seen an old white dog? 
Have you checked behind the RV? No, 
And he makes his way to the squatting lot, muttering 
anthropologies and rosaries, and I stay here, muttering, 
poetries and the trees fall down leaf by leaf
the way paranoids lose their memories. 

Talking to yourself up there! 
O good you found your dog! 
Max likes to run off where no one can see him drool, 
He needs me to wipe his mouth, A friend said something similar to me 
just the other day, Yeah? says bald spot, 
tugging his Max along, Yeah, I am thinking of J 
barefoot the day before his trial, J said 
"I need a friend to defend me 
but everytime I ask for help I drool," 
Get your friend a rag, That's funny cuz J drips rags 
and honest fear, punk that he is, facing down more jail 
like a house already gutted offers her windows to thieves, dare, 
Well, thanks for the help, No problem, Enjoy the roof, 
I mean to, there's nowheres to go, 

& I mean it
there's a peace here like good dirt in a graveyard 
(graveyards have good dirt, & yknow why) 
& he bikes away & here it ends. 

some language fragments found today

gray fog underbelly sky feeling 
like a kiss dispersed over timelines 
that is to say                                     , mist 
!mystery, mapleleaves cusping the
pretense of purple 
                                fragile as a high 
veiny neurons veined with impressive 
                                                           , dying 

anyway i gotta go       ,       ,       ,     work. 
the new boss: oozing, with her slug-tongue
behind heavy doors: "these people don't work very hard." 

she means, 'trust my good intentions
                                        my power , over.' 

no. i put her words in my pocket, 
sticky with slime. 

the old teacher: with her frazzled: 
"that boy is from a nice family." 

she means: 'that boy is docile        , white 
and I see his dad behind the corner 
at Wells Fargo.' 

no. i put her words in my pocket, 
and they hulk like a plucked toad. 

the dogged comrade: with his historical ears: 
"I am the only one with the skills, 
and furthermore I am the only one that will." 

he means: 'democracy is beyond me, 
sustainability a stump.'

no. i put his words in my pocket, 
hostile as roadkill eyes
                                       drenched by semis 

and me: i tell you, "i feel heavy." 

i mean: 'i'm roped in ideologies. 
let's talk ourselves clean.' 

                                 , you know what i mean
so we empty our pockets.